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my thoughts and ramblings…again..Archive for April, 2006
Black Book
Heaven is your eyes and so are your lips,
But heaven is more with each and every kiss…
— anonymous (daw!)
Came from a black book of my lolo's (hehehe..biro mo meron na siya nun?)
Watched something about a blackbook recently on HBO. It's about a girl digging up the past of her boyfriend. It involves digging up "secrets".
Ayoko ng mga sikreto bagamat' alam ko na lahat ng tao meron nito. At, kung ikaw ay komportable sa mga sikreto ng iyong mga kaibigan, maari itong makabuti at makasama…(hanep tagalog!)
Knowing your friends' secret (some) could lead to dangerous "curiousity". Para kang aso, nang binigyan ka ng buto, gusto mo naman ay may laman..(hehehe…weird analogy).
I know some and i'd be a hypocrite kung 'di ko sasabihin na 'di ako curious sa iba pang sikreto nila. Minsan, sa sobrang ciuriousity, nababaliw na ako…hahahaha!!!
I know that there are secrets not meant to be discovered as there some which when known, doesn't really mean anything for you.
I hope that I don't get swept up by knowing and not knowing my friends' secrets. haaay….
I am a tire (d)…??
hear me burn???!!! hehehe…this is me trying to be profound…and failing miserably.. Ok, happenings for the past weeks.
Went on a retreat with my choirmates somewhere in tagaytay, in which we talk about shifting gears. Made us realize what kind of persons we are, where we are in life and what role GOD plays in our lives. There was a session there that was so intense…all of us cried.. kaya lang may ice breaker. In the middle of one member sharing, we heard a distinct sound..parang "poooottt!" Grabe! Hindi na ako dumilat dahil if I found out that some of us were stifling our gigles, I would burst out laughing. Turned out that I wasn't the only one who heard. Katabi ko pala ang salarin..hehehe..
My friends and I had an understanding that when We went on the retreat and it being cold there, we planned on drinking. Syempre nakialam ang Diyos at di kami pinayagan..hehehe… First, bibili sana kami sa palengke pero nakita ng presidente ang balak kaya umayaw. Then, when night came, naghanap kami pero walang bukas na tindahan dun. Tapos, kinuntyaba namin ang guard sa village, wala siyang alam na mabibilhan. We gave up after 12mn and decided to play cards instead.
The Gamers
The Monkey
Slumber party kuno
Naglaro kami ng "monkey-monkey" (ungguy-ungguyan) and to my suprise, hindi ako naging ungguy all through out the ten games i played. Inaantok na ako kaya natulog na ako pero naglaro pa sila. Hayun, nagising ako ng umaga na ang best friend ko puting-puting sa pulbo sa mukha dahil parati syang unggoy. 
ok, onto serious stuff..
After the retreat, I realized that I wasn't happy with the job I was promoted to. It took me away from friends and my service to Church and from myself also. It became depressing to the point that my day seem to start and end at work..(12mn to 8 am) and that includes weekends.
So, i approached my boss said my piece, in a nice way, and I believe they understood. We reached a compromise since they can't give me what I want for it would create bias and precedence so, I'm back to 4pm to 12mn shift, and weekends are my off, woohooo!!! Thank you God!!
Prayer really helps talaga…thank you again.
Me and a thing called…indecision
Maybe I’m just scared. Or I just don’t want to appear ungrateful. But I am sad and unhappy and i know I have the right to ask this, to request this change.
Nah. The situation has been beneficial to me, monetary wise. I was able to set-up a savings account and deposit a considerable sum of money. I was able to go on a pizza/pasta binge whenever I feel like it and usually, I don’t binge alone.
But i’m still sad and lonely. Not having control of my time. Letting home turn into just a place to sleep. I’m hardly motivated to socialize anymore.
I am a “heart” person, I let my heart lead me into decisions which I believe were and still are right. The mood i’m in right now, or should I say for the past 3 months, is because of work, and damn it!!!!! hindi na ako masaya.
Wala na akong magawa kundi magtiis… o hanapin ang lakas ng luob upang baguhin ko ang kapalaran ko.
Hindi ito magiging madali.
